By Hakeem Alexander
(Exercising Your Mind) The same as I have witnessed beauty and have often been party to its cause, so have I contributed to many destructive illusions. As I have had the favor to examine this dual nature of myself and of everything else, a sense of something magnificent unites with me. I understand the great potential in this “ability” to create change in my mind and therefore to alter “reality”.
Sometimes, my ability to examine my beliefs and perceptions “realistically” and compare them to what is actually happening according to the rest of the world does not add up. Other times I have aberrant beliefs that fly in the face of “facts” and are not changed by “evidence” that my beliefs are unreasonable.
In spite of or inspired by this I have been able to create new realities according to my delusions. I understand in myself that I, and any others who decide to make their own way are free to do just so. My only guidelines are that I do my best to maintain peace of mind within myself and therefore establish that in my reality, which interacts with the realities of others.
The Devil is not what one might readily assume it is, at least not from what I gleaned from the Satanic Bible; nor is my interpretation of God from the Holy Scriptures what I had before “learned”. Both have enormous wisdom to impart just as the Tibetan Book of the Dead, The Qur’an and many other Books of Faith in my Library.
I have taken lessons from racists as well as unity groups; I have studied War as well as meditated upon and practiced Peace; I have also accepted my simultaneous Love and Hate for a single individual. This integration of both the “dark” and “light” sides of my being has liberated my energies for the establishment of feeling more “whole”.
I was once trapped within myself in an unbelievable torment because I once believed that opportunities, the Government, the Stars, my environment and many other external factors determined my life and existence; but I have begun the fascinating and worthwhile task of denying this with the fullness of my personal power so that soon there will no longer be anything within me that believes in those things. There is no turning back for me as I have realized these environmental factors as Hypnotic conditions into which I have been entranced, and have decided to fall into only that conditioning which I so choose.
I now choose my emotions, my environment, my Devils, Gods, food, drugs or the absolute extinction of these things. I am literally living my dreams because I have made that choice. This does not mean that I am not occasionally surprised by a rage or sadness that I did not choose, but I am now empowered with the knowledge that I may change my experience of, and actual reality at will, thereby experiencing anything as easily or as burdensome as I deem appropriate.
There was a time in my life when I was held in a mental hospital for two months because of my own and others misunderstanding of my own beliefs. The reason I went in in the first place is a topic of another rant, but what sustained my “treatment” was the Psychiatrists interview and her reading of my “poetry”. I can imagine that there could be quite a few mental health professionals who would still agree with that now 13 year old diagnosis.
As long as I can remember, I have had experiences that are not statistically most frequent or “normal”. Before, I would usually suppress these because of opposing and sometimes hostile input from my environment. As a result of this suppression I have expressed these energies in negative and destructive ways.
Today however, my realization has been that I can turn my Devils into Gods and my Gods into Devils or be a Devil God at my own personal discretion. It is this realization that triggers my belief that the power of choice and the ability for anyone to experience whatever they wish in life is absolutely possible at anytime.
It is my greatest desire that I will continue to transmute my energies throughout time and become a living example of the enormous power that resides within everything that is existence; -and to unite with others who will guide me along this journey.
Science of Mind; Ernest Holmes-1938
Owning Your Own Shadow
The Natural Mind